Reflections on a Year in the Swinging Lifestyle

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Reflections on a Year in the Swinging LifestyleI'm approaching the end of my first year in the Lifestyle and have lately been thinking about what I've learned along the way.

I have to confess that my motivation for giving this a try was purely physical. I'm a single, 40+ woman with the sex drive of a teenage boy. I just wasn't getting laid often enough. I'd like to be able to say that's changed, but frequency – or rather infrequency – has been one of my greatest disappointments about the Lifestyle.

I thought having access to a pool of other open-minded people would increase my sexual opportunities. To a certain degree, I suppose it has. I now know where and how to find people who practice a kind of sexual openness that I truly thought was mostly mythical. But as I said to a friend, it's difficult to be promiscuous when you're picky.

It isn't just me. I've discovered that people in the Lifestyle seem to be choosy, in general. The culture caters to couples. So when sex is the driving force behind the search for secondary partners, and sex is already available at home, it's easier to use the slightest excuse to keep looking. The guy is too short. The woman is too loud. The man's wife is hot but it isn't fair to ask your own to take one for the team. Seemingly incompatible schedules can be an issue, too. It's often the same story for weeks or months at a time. “Let's do it next weekend instead.”

There have been good lessons, too. Getting into the Lifestyle was an experiment, but one that I never imagined wold present so many unconventional sexual adventures that would force me to examine, maybe for the first time, many of my assumptions about relationships.

I've met many couples whose relationships were strengthened rather than diminished by welcoming other partners into their bedrooms. People grow closer through all kinds of intimate experiences and it doesn't get much more intimate than happily sharing a partner with someone else. Because I don't have a partner, I'm only getting a spectator's view of things, but it seems that without the expectation that their sexual relationship will be exclusive forever, there's less tension in other areas of the relationship, too. What I've seen has convinced me that I'd like to have that kind of relationship someday – one with someone who loves me enough to enjoy seeing the pleasure I get from other sexual partners.

I've also learned a bit firsthand about the phenomenon of hetero-flexibility. Playing in an environment that encourages people to explore their fantasies allowed me to be comfortable enough to have my first sexual experiences with women. Since I'm the only person who can truly define my own sexuality, I tell people who I still consider myself straight although I like being a couple's third wheel. A sexual experience with a woman is so different from being with a man who I think novelty is still a big part of the appeal for me. Maybe after that wears off I'll re-define myself, but my default preference in a sexual and emotional partner is a man. How do I know? Because if I was forced to choose one or the other, there's no doubt about which of the two genders I desire most. Women are fun, but I don't think I could fall in love with one.

 

 

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Ms Deed is a 40+ single woman who freed her hedonist tendencies when she discovered the Lifestyle in 2011. She lives in the wilds of South Florida, where much stranger things have happened.

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    I completely understand and the wife and I are right at the same point.  We have had all the usual problems, and I find that “spontaneity” is the mainstay.  Not regularity.  I’m more of a regular guy and that has been a problem too.  However, we just accidentally ran into a unicorn and WE both took to her.  Not as a faceless third, but well, when she slid out from our arms at 6am the wife and got up to see her off.  We had only had a couple hours sleep together, but it was wonderful to wake up like that.  I asked the wife what she thought about the whole thing the night before and the only word she could say was “fabulous”.  We are just not sure how to proceed from here.  I have a gazillion questions as I am sure you can imagine.  If you have time and inclination:  jrnokes@gmail.com….Thank you very much…j

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