Objectify Me. But Only When I Say So.

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I’m beautiful.

It feels incredibly wrong to say this out loud or in print. Growing up it was a lesson carved deep that it wasn’t something you could say about yourself. It was for other people to tell you you were pretty or beautiful, changing to sexy or hot as we got older, but attractiveness was not something you got to claim for yourself. If you were anything but self-deprecating about your appearance, you were–gasp!–egotistical and vain.

Many of the messages we received in this were in the schoolyard where girls who were aware of their good looks were looked down upon, called names, and dissed behind their backs. I learned well that you were supposed to put yourself down and did a whole lot of it. And because people didn’t tell me I was, it never occurred to me that I was pretty. I look back on photos and I was really cute but I had absolutely no idea, and besides, it was brains that really mattered. On television and in movies the ‘beautiful people’ were always bitches or douche canoes while the smart, shyly unaware of her looks girl was the one you cheered for. Pop music goes as far as to explicitly lay it out that not being aware of our beauty is what makes us beautiful (Why yes, I do take life lessons from One Direction songs).

As a society, we’re obsessed with beauty. We’re all encouraged to strive for the perfect face/body combo that others will crave, but we’re not supposed to do so obviously, or acknowledge/appreciate what we’ve got. This mixed message is not only directed at those of us with internal genitalia but the penis-havers as well. How many times have you heard a woman say with disgust disguised as humour, ‘he takes even longer to get ready than I do.’ The pressure to be perfectly coiffed, to have 5% body fat and sculpted everything is increasingly present for men, though endless sitcom pairings of schlubby guys with stunning sex-kitten wives indicates the emphasis is still incredibly one-sided.

That one-sided emphasis carries over strongly to many lifestyle settings where the expectation is that women should dress up in specified sexy ways when the men are not subjected to the same expectation. It’s one of the things that actively turns me off attending many events at our local clubs. I love themes and costumes and dressing up but the difference between sexy schoolgirl and the male equivalent–usually nerd or rebel–is extremely off-putting. I’m willing to put on that get-up for a partner I know will get off on it, but not because it’s mandated.

I love to be objectified where and when I ask for it to happen. I am a huge exhibitionist and love to share pics with my partners and fuck buddies and lucky friends (and often, the internet). I love to dress up in sexy clothes and lingerie for my dates but I’m doing it all because I choose to, not because I’m told to or expected to. I’m presenting myself as an object in those moments for my partners (or instagram followers) because it feels good to me. I’m opting-in to objectification in that situation.

Even as I feel good about the sharing I do and the comments I get, I’m incredibly conscious that there is much backlash against women who share a lot of selfies. There are often articles calling out selfie-culture, particularly directed at women–they’re vapid, vain, shallow, and they aren’t capable of succeeding by ‘real’ metrics. In a recent interview, Canadian Olympic athlete Adam Kreek (and sexist jackass) called out Canadian Olympic athlete Eugenie Bouchard in an interview for not being committed to winning because of her selfies, interest in fashion, and her social media presence. She’s in the gorram Olympics, but she uses iInstagram too much for his tastes, so clearly she’s not serious about being a ‘real’ athlete. It’s gross.

Kim Kardashian’s nudes receive endless scolding and slut shaming because how dare she be such a bad role model. I saw so many posts go through my twitter and facebook that she should set a better example and young girls should be shown that modesty is the way to show they have worth beyond all that superficial beauty stuff and shameful sex stuff. Doesn’t Kim know that only the patriarchy is allowed to share and commodify her beauty and body? Dictate if her ass is perfect or if she’s gotten too fat or thin? Who the fuck does she think she is to claim her body, beauty, and sexuality as her own?

I hadn’t been a person who thought highly of Kardashian until that moment because I am also heavily influenced by all the cultural negativity against being famous for being famous, especially among people who value brains over looks. Seeing her owning her image for her personal use to be objectified as she saw fit, I was suddenly on her team. Fuck yeah! And it helped me come to terms with my own bias and shame with regards to seeking the attention I do from people in my life through sexy photos. It’s my beauty, my body, and I get to decide what to do with it.

Speaking of, I look super-cute in these undies as I write. I’m gonna go snap some selfies.

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About Author

Kat is a sex-positive, geeky, Canadian, pansexual, deviant, slutty, feminist pervert who came to ethical non-monogamy 21-years into her relationship with her husband. After a quick toe-dip to test the waters (and hours of obsessive reading and podcast consumption), they dove in and she almost can't imagine they ever lived any other way. Labels never give a totally clear picture, but she considers herself non-monogamous and polyamorous, though she occasionally swings. She's also a podcaster and audiobook narrator. onthewetcoast.com @WetcoastKat on Twitter.

2 Comments

  1. I agree with everything you say, the hushing of girls who are attractive, shaming them, putting them back into a box and self-consciousness, just to make room for the less attractive women to have a chance with the men. I am convinced that this behavior is not fair, but it is putting good looking girls in a shameful light for the simple fact that everyone wants a good looking partner, and the lower the self-esteem of a beautiful person is, the better the chances of a less attractive person has to scoop up a partner above their own beauty class.

    It is amazing what it does when an attractive person realizes that when they avoid being too aware of their own beauty and attractiveness, they actually, at the same time, appear as though they were rejecting the attractive people who want them, who are just as careful to not appear too self-assured and narcissistic… Leaving both of these attractive people up for grabs for the less attractive.

    If it is so shallow to think that beauty matters, why are the less attractive so keen on dating a hottie anyway? And why do awful looking women still think that any guy should be happy to have them, with no need for self-assessment, like it is OK to laugh at a fat old ugly dude who thinks any 20-year old would want them, but a 50-year-old woman who’s been drinking booze all her life, smoking and stuffing herself with donuts every day of her life is still “hot enough” for a 20-year old man who should be flattered by the attention of “a mature” woman. LOL

    Just as much as it is a taboo to say you think you are hot, it is as much a taboo to point out a woman who is not… But let’s not blind ourselves.

  2. Wow, we are on very different wavelengths here. I disagree that the point of hushing women is to make room for less attractive women to have a chance with men. It is a way to control and keep ALL women down by telling us that patriarchal society gets to dictate what makes us attractive and what doesn’t. Women who are deemed ‘unattractive’ by society have even less power than anyone else and it was not at all the point of my article to deride other women but simply to own my own beauty & sexuality.

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